Scars
Scars means a mark left or sore has not healed completely.
“Our Scars may be someone’s else signs of hope”
-Sydney Mohede-
Hello again dear friends.
Shall we start..
Longtime ago,
I got my 1st scar from the one that I used to be in love with.
I’m just a happy little daddy’s girl.
Who doesn’t know this fake world.
Until someone crushed my dream.
Crying all day long for several years.
Blaming myself for everything that happened.
And even more.
I don’t even know how to stand on my own feet.
I don’t know how to face this life.
Everyone is fake.
Everyone is deceiver.
I used to be scared
Fell down.
I don’t want to meet anyone.
I don’t know what to do at that scary moment.
Honestly that was my lowest moment.
Met the wrong person.
Which disappointed me without any guilt.
I keep on praying.
Yes, the only thing that I can do.
I need God to strengthen me.
Just put my trust in Him and let Him take the fear away.
I have nothing in this world.
I felt hopeless at that time.
And satan intimidated me over and over again.
Praying to keep my faith alive.
And makes me believe that he will sow what he reaps.
No need for revenge.
After 10 years, when I am ready to open my heart.
And It was time I reach out God’s hand.
Mr. Wrong is Mr. Perfect
After waiting so long.
I met a new guy from a different world.
A man who really impressed me.
An entrepreneur who runs his business so well.
Who always stay cool for every mistake that he made.
A man with his money power and family support.
No matter how bad he is.
Who always shows that he is so kind, reliable and perfect.
Until I thought that he was my right.
Because of God lead my way to him.
After everything that I’m going through.
With His confirmation obviously.
I accept it.
But unfortunately, the man that I saw in that day.
Is totally different person.
Along the way he had something bad in mind about me.
He just came and broke my heart by making a lots of promises.
He lied and drowned me.
Saying so many promises without feeling guilty.
I met Mr. Wrong.
Yes he is.
Mr. wrong is Mr. perfect.
What his religion doesn’t matter.
He could cross different religions just to hurt a woman.
That guy was even worse than other guy.
The man without purity.
And only shows his fantasy.
He is too ambitious, demanding and so complicated.
I don’t know him that well.
One thing for sure, he has bad intentions towards me.
That I don’t know.
He came and brought his own unfinished past.
Release all his desires on me.
He ruined my life even worse.
I can’t take back my integrity either.
The scars is getting bigger.
He added that wound in the same place in my life.
How could I not blame myself anymore?
A Little advice
I was facing the deepest moment of my life without anyone knowing.
I am fighting to heal my life from those scars.
But then I surrender everything in God’s hand.
Here is a little advice for you guys.
Never turn yourself to the demon.
Never trust anyone but God.
Don’t let others take away your integrity.
And more important things.
Don’t let other people take all your purity.
Because the devil is cunning.
Keep your faith.
Because God is on the way.
For your next reading.
Cerita Lalu >> See that Karma is real.
Merdeka >> Feel free from anxiety.
Lepas dari depresi >> Get rid of the burden
Enjoy reading!
Have a blessed day.
Cheers
–dcy–